Tuesday, 31 January 2012

Nut Butters And...

I haven't been very raw over these last so many days, infact, I haven't been eating a great amount at all!! But today I decided to make some nut butters; almond butter and peanut butter. My almond butter is nearly done and then I am going to make some peanut butter.
I have also just boxed up some alfalfa seeds which are now in my fridge.

I have been having a lot of trouble with my family during this time. Throughout my dads illness the family often failed to let us (me, my hubs and my boys)  know that my dad had gone into hospital, and in December 2011 my dad suddenly ended up back in hospital after the year being at home. My dad had to let us know 2 weeks later that he was back in hospital, we think he realised that no-one had told us. When we got there he got very upset saying he was just SO pleased to see us! This, no-one letting us know has gone on throughout the whole horrible time. When my husband and myself went to see my dad on Thursday gone, my aunt and uncle came in and they done nothing but go on about myself and my hubs going home to have our evening meal...HINT OR WHAT?????....Okay, message recieved, we left, but we only left out of sheer politeness, that is what we are like, my aunt and uncle were NOT polite in their manner when hinting to us to leave, I would rather they said outright...hinting is so horrible and tacky. They had been vsiting my dad loads and staying with him overnight. I DEEPLY regret leaving just for them!!!!!! Especially as my dad died the next day; Friday 27 January 2012.
My step mother, well, she seemed to be more bothered about cleaning and in December during one of our visits to see my dad at home she even asked us, "would you stay with your dad because I must get out to the shops to buy some cleaning products?" these were her actual words. Yes cleaning must be done but she done nothing but complain about my dad being sick, she is one evil person!!!!! She left her very young son with her first husband then came in and wrecked our family!!!
My youngest sister kept putting us last to visit my dad and we felt she was trying to put us off...FULL STOP! We went to visit as often as we could ONCE we got to know when he was in hospital each time. We of course visited him as often as we could at home as normal which was when we thought my dad was going to be alright after his first operation last January 2011. My sister has gone on to call me names on Face Book to around the world to folk who don't know the full story or me. I will NEVER forgive her or the other family members. I feel robbed of precious time with my dad!!
"We can choose our friends but we can't choose our family".....PITY!!!
I am going to try to be as normal as possible and put my boys who are greiving so badly, my husband and myself first.

I am quite aware that I have put some nitty gritty and personal stuff on here today, I could tell you more but I will spare you the rest of the nasty, vindictive details, I just needed to get this little lot off my chest as it appears that I have no family to talk to. I know I have my darling husband and 3 brilliant sons.

Never Forget
Your presence is a present to the world.
You're unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.
Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You'll make it through, whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.
Don't put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.
Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Don't take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot of love goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life's treasures, are people . . . together.
Realize that it's never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have health, hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a star.
And don't ever forget . . .
For even a day . . .
How very special you are.

-- Author Unknown


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